I know deep down that this cycle didn't work. Despite sore b00bies, and the twinges, which I know are due to the progesterone suppositories I'm shoving up my who-ha every night, despite those symptoms, I'm 100% positive I'm not pregnant.
No, I didn't POAS. I just know. On a molecular level I know.
And to think I decided to do a cycle instead of going on a cruise to Alaska.
I am so mad at IF right now, I could spit, I could cry. It's just so unfair.
I know some of you may tell me not to give up hope, to wait until I get my beta on Sunday. Well. I just know this cycle is bust. Please don't try to convince me otherwise. It will just make me cry more.
F*ck.
~Jem
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Sending you a hug since it sounds like you could use one...
So sorry!
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I am so sorry.
f*cking infertility.
xo
I'm sorry you are feeling this way, Jem. :-(
I get the same way. It's just an in-your-bones knowledge that it didn't work. Everyone always thinks I'm crazy, but it's my body and I know.
The only good thing is, usually I'm well on the path to healing by the time beta rolls around.
Much love.
Shit! Sorry sweetie!!!!!!! Sending love your way.
Sending a hug your way Jem. It sucks what IF does to us.
Thinking of you...
(((HUGS)))
Hey there.. I'm ur newest follower and I, too know a thing or two about iui's... I'm going on my third IUI .. Ugh! IF sucks!!!! I want to scream!! anywho.. I'm sending u a huuuuuge hug right now. I'm sorry ur feeling blue. Keep the faith :)
IF is the worst b$tch for sure. But. This game is not over. Sending much love and 'keep your chins up' vibes.
(((hugs)))
Many hugs to you. I hate the mindfuck the tww is. I hate that our hearts are hurt so deeply at every negative cycle. I hate IF, too.
Damn it, eh? I hate that feeling of impending doom. So sorry this isn't going well. Especially the 'for this I gave up Alaska' thing. That's salt in the wound alright.
No one knows your body like you do. Don't worry - Alaska isn't going anywhere!
*hugs*
It sucks how much of living we give up when we're trying to get knocked up the ART way. I, too, have lost so many opportunties. I"m having to pass up a trip to Saratoga Springs for 2 days for my current cycle. Grrrrr.
I believe that many of us know our bodies quite well and can really tell when pregnancy happens. I hope that you've just got a sneaky embryo that isn't being really obvious. Fingers crossed for Sunday. :)
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