Wednesday, June 30, 2010

No frosties

F*ck.

Dr. W just called with the news. None of the 4 other embryos made it to day 6 for freezing. Everything is banking on these three inside of me right now. There will be no FET from this cycle. Double f*ck.

Stick and grow and be healthy! At least one of you!!

I'm going to go cry now. F*ck this whole IF thing.

~Jem

27 comments:

Stacie said...

Oh, Jem. I am so sorry. Hugs to you...

Jenni said...

I'm so sorry. {{hugs}} IF sucks!

--and you there, embies, stick and grow!

K said...

We never had any frosties from either cycle. With the last one, I hit my knees and begged God through my sobs. I'll never, ever forget that moment.

May one (or more!) of your three be yours to hold. Come on, babies! ♥

Trinity said...

Jem, I'm so sorry. This happened for us as well. The worst part? The clinic actually had to send us a cryo letter that said something along the lines of, "We froze ___ embryos for you." And in that blank was a handwritten ZERO, a big ol' goose egg. Fortunately, our nurse gave us a call and told us to expect the letter (she had already given us the verbal update of no frosties), so at least it wasn't a huge awful mailbomb surprise. Ick. I threw the letter in the shred pile. I didn't need the reminder that we didn't have any left...

I'm hanging my heart on a giant pile of hope for you. Hang in there, girl.

Melissa G said...

Crap, I'm sorry Jem. That sucks.

Here's to hoping you won't need them.

Circus Princess said...

I'm speaking directly to your embabies here - Your mama needs you, stick, grow and join her!!

Positive thinking, positive thinking! But a good cry is totally fine if you need it :)

Brandy said...

Damn I'm so sorry! Hoping that your three embies are doing much better since they're inside where they should be and not in a petri dish. Sending many positive thoughts and vibes your way!!

www.brandysheaif.blogspot.com

Allison said...

Oh Jem... I'm so sorry. (((((Hugs))))) Stick, little ones, stick!!

Emmy said...

I'm so sorry. That is one of my fears right now. Hopefully the ones in there now will do their job and stick around. Good luck!

Katie said...

Oh, Jem. This sucks. I'm so sorry. Sending the three little embabies inside of you lots of sticky vibes. I have everything crossed over here.

bunny said...

Oh...what a terrible disappointment! I'm very sorry. I can only hope you won't need them.

ASP said...

They picked the cream of the crop, so let's hope that they stick, stick, stick (x3)! I'm here rootin' you on! Best of luck, Jem! ;) and keep focusing on the positive!

R.J. said...

So sorry. I hate to literally have all my eggs in one basket too. We didn't have any frosties either (and never have, for that matter). But the 2 they transferred this last cycle were the best of the batch and they both took!

Oak said...

I am so sad to read your news and truly hope that in a few weeks it won't matter because you'll have your BFP and that will be all that matters.

pcostory said...

Jem, that totally sucks! I am so sorry, I am shedding a tear for you as well as screaming profanities at infertility. Praying for you guys!

Brooke said...

Oh, embies, please stick around! You are really going to be happy you did!

GOOD LUCK!

Adventures in Baby Waiting said...

I've been there Jem but the three inside of you have the best incubator/chance of all of your embryos! Hang in there. I didn't have frosties either and had a good cry but don't lose hope, it can still happen! Keep your chin up sweetie!

Journey and Hope said...

Thinking positive thoughts for you!

nutsinmay said...

Oh, f*ck indeed. So sorry. Sending best wishes and hopes to the three inside you, but MAN, not having any to freeze sucks.

Rain Child said...

I am so sorry....f*ck. That sucks!

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lis said...

damn those uncooperative embies! im so, so sorry. having none in the freezer feels crappy, almost as much of a letdown as a bnf (almost). im right there with ya, sister. if i want anymore embies, i gotta make em, and my track record of late suuuucks. anyway, i wanted to let you know that ive been thinking of you all day (read this on my phone at work) and i hope you are feeling a little better now after some time with the hubby and the kitty
xoxo
lis

irrationalexuberance said...

Ugh -- I completely know how you feel. We had a 5 day transfer the first go, and had 2 to freeze, and then the second we had to go with 3 days and nothing froze, and I felt like an utter failure. But there are 3 (THREE!!!) great chances kicking around inside you right now, and I am hoping like hell that as many as you want end up burrowing in and hanging around for the duration.

I sooo want this to work for you!

Poppet said...

Sending cyberkleenex.

xog

Kate said...

Aw, Jem... you're not alone. I'm hoping so hard for you right now.

TeeJay said...

I'm so sorry, Jem. I'm hoping with everything I have that at least one of your embies sticks. Please, oh please! I'm sending you a big (((hug))).

Mama2Bee said...

Jem, just catching up with your blog. So sorry for the sucky news :( This process really is crappy especially during this 2ww. I'm sending you lots of baby dust along with some warm fuzzies for your 3 gorgeous embies. They are right where they need to be! Hugs xx