Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Getting ready to stim...

I stopped drinking coffee before the start of this cycle - followed by a hellish week of headaches. Since then I've been drinking black tea only. Now I decided no caffeine and have switched to decaf tea. I have such a whopper of a headache. I just want to crawl into bed and die. I do want to clear out the caffeine before I get started with stimming on Friday.

Mentally I've also been getting ready. I've noticed that I've not been able to read certain blogs lately, mostly IF'ers who have gotten knocked up. Love you guys, but, except for a couple of PG blogs, I can't read about pregnancy symptoms or sleepless nights right now. Or about baby showers. I just feel super protective. I hope to be able to read them again soon. I'm also having trouble reading about recent loss. It's like I am naturally gravitating towards blogs / women who are starting an IVF cycle now, like me. My mind can't absorb the joy or the pain of other bloggers' BFP's or BFNs.

How about you? What type of blogs are you reading and does it correspond to where you are in this process?



lis said...

I always read or at least skim everything in my reader. Some people's blogs are wholly painful for me at any time, especially those who are succeeding with a pregnancy after the 2nd tri. I certainly looked around for people doing a FET recently, as I am. Wishing you luck as you start stims! Your transfer may be around mine! June 23.

S said...

Ugh, I feel you on the quitting caffeine! The withdrawal headaches are awful!

I read a variety of different IF blogs, both of women who are pregnant or parenting and those who are still going through treatments, both IUIs (as I am) and IVF. I will confess that I sometimes avoid the pregnant/parenting blogs when I'm going through a rough spot, and a few I have had to stop reading because the posts consistently upset me.

Having said that, there is something especially nice about reading the blog of someone who is at about the same place as I am in my "journey."

Brandy said...

I try to continue to read everyone in my Reader, but for the past week, since my BFN it has been extremely hard to read the preggo ones. I still read them, but can't muster up the energy to comment.

Heather said...

My confession: I stop reading when they become pregnancy blogs. I guess I feel like I have nothing in common anymore. I'm bad I know...but you are in good company.

Good luck with your cycle!

Rain Child said...

Ohhh, I am so sorry for the headaches. That is horrible, but I hope it is all worth it!

Thank you so much for all of your support over the past few days! It's meant so much!

Adventures in Baby Waiting said...

I understand where you are blog wise. I go through the same thing, when I started stims I wanted to be with girls in my situation. I felt it was too soon to hold hope so I didn't want to read pregnancy blogs and the women's blogs that weren't going through IVF were, well, i needed someone going through what I was going through. I hope you don't mind if I keep supporting you. I made a pact with myself to support everyone on my blog through their journey and you're on it! I have great hopes for you this cycle.

callmemama said...

Ouch, caffeine headache sounds rough :(.
I do the same thing with blogs - sometimes those pg and miscarriage blogs can be too much to read when I'm in a shaky emotional state. By the same token, there are times when I can't read newly IF blogs - just starting to visit the RE, etc. It's just too hard for some reason.
I think we naturally are drawn toward those people who are like us, who can help us the most at that particular time, and that's okay.

Katie said...

I'm so sorry about the headaches! That happened to me the first time I gave up caffeine. Now I do drink coffee occasionally, but when I skip days, I don't get the headaches as bad as I used to.

As for blog reading, if I'm having a bad day I tend to skip pregnancy blogs and come back to them at a later time. It's just easier for me to cope that way and it keeps me from getting too emotional. I still follow everyone's journey, but some days are just too difficult to see pregnant bellies.

Jenni said...

I read all of the ones that I am following - but I tend to not go out of my way to read new ones that are PG or parenting. Sometimes they just hurt.

Caffeine withdrawals hurt! I used to do that to myself *every* weekend until I stopped coffee at work during the week.

Pie said...

Caffeine withdrawal sucks! I hope you get over the headaches soon.

And I totally understand not wanting to read certain blogs (my own included!). I do the same things at times. You need to do what is best for you, and your true bloggy friends will understand. Know that I will continue to support you, and expect nothing in return. I want the best for you, and will cheer you on.

Good luck starting the stims!!

Amy said...

Caffeine headaches suck. I'm in the same boat...stimming starts tonight(!), it will be a party on my thigh at 6pm (L.upron, F.ollistim and M.enopur). This is my second IVF and I hear you completely about following blogs that are running close to the same cycle as me. I do follow along with everybody on my list, but commenting is hard when their news is good and mine is not there yet.
I'll be following along with you for this cycle. I hope it brings the news you are waiting for!! ((Hugs))