Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Trigger Melt-down

I stood there, tears streaming down my face, vial of HCG in one hand and my phone in the other.

I was supposed to trigger at 6:30 p.m. and it was 6:34 and I was freaking out. Mr. Jem had been late picking me up at the train station - I stood there seething the whole time I waited, "He doesn't care about having a baby." (wrong - there was traffic). Now we were home and I was in a complete panic and having a melt-down.

"Sorry to call you after hours, Dr. On-Call." I sobbed into the phone, "This shot is different from last time. With Ovi.dril I knew what to do. This is pure HCG and the package says, "intermuscular only" and I don't know what to do". She calmly said, "Don't worry. You can shoot it into your tummy, no problem." Whew!

By 6:36 we had done the injection. No time to ice. But that's okay. It's not Meno.pur (evil) and doesn't sting.

I'm still a bit stressed, hate being all blamey with Mr. Jem. Isn't making a baby fun? (sarcasm)
So, we triggered. It's done. ER will be at 6:30 a.m. on Thursday. No shots tomorrow (yippee!) 

I don't have any more energy to type... going to crawl into a little ball and I don't know what. Or maybe I'll read other blogs to distract me...

~Jem

19 comments:

Jessica said...

I'm sorry you had such an exhausting day, but glad that everything worked out! Good luck on Thursday!!!!

TeeJay said...

Oh you poor thing. I'm so sorry you had such a traumatic trigger. Maybe give Mr. Jem a hug and do some snuggling. You have triggered and are well on your way now! Yay for no shots tomorrow. Try to find some zen...and get ready to have some great eggs retrieved.

edenland said...

Oh mate, how bad does it suck! All the needles and bullsh*t. I had to give my own trigger - in the arse. Dave wasn't even there. I was annoyed, but I did it and felt tough.

I'll be thinking of you on Thursday, and will check back to see how you went.

xox

edenland said...

Oh hai, me again. I just read your journey so far, in your sidebar.

And I can't believe what you've gone through. Want you to know that when I say I'm thinking of you on Thursday, I really am thinking of you on Thursday. A LOT. XO

callmemama said...

Wow, you poor dear :(. Sounds like a stressful trigger! Glad you were able to get it done despite the traffic. Good luck on Thursday!

Suzy said...

I have everything crossed for you, fingers, toes, eyes ;)
Best of luck for Thursday!

Illanare said...

Oh you poor girl. But you did it! Will be thinking of you on Thursday.

Hugs

mommyinwaiting said...

I can only imagine how stressful it all gets at the end there, so don't beat yourself up over the little meltdown. All is fine, wishing you the very best for ER tomorrow - looking forward to hearing how many they get and how the fert goes.

ifcrossroads said...

Oh Jem. (((((((hugs)))))) Triggering is so friggin stressful. Glad it's over with. Enjoy today as much as you can and look forward to Thursday night/Friday night when you can relax with a glass of wine.
xxoo

Adventures in Baby Waiting said...

It all worked out! No biggie! (Although I know I would have freaked out too!) Congrats on your shot free day and I can't wait to get an update after your ER! It's going to be great!

babyattheend said...

Phew! I got nervous there.... I'm so excited for you. TOMORROW! Sending you lots and lots and lots of warmth.

Mrs. Lemon said...

Aww, we had a very similiar experience with IVF #1. I was yelling at Mr. Lemon that he didn't care and that I needed him to etc. etc. I knew I wasn't right but it all can just get so stressful. Take care of yourself and get some pampering! Good luck at retrieval!

Katie said...

What a day. I'm so glad that everything worked out and you were able to do the trigger. Everything crossed for Thursday morning and a fantastic retrieval!

Allison said...

"Isn't making a baby fun?" HAHAHAHAHAA! Needles and tears and doctors, oh my!

Hooray for a shot-free day, and sending good thoughts for your ER!

Katie said...

Its just all so emotionally exhausting - I can totally put myself in your shoes with the frustration and the confusion. Just another day in our little infertile worlds.

Amber said...

Awww! Hormones are fantastic. The ones we inject are doubly so! ;) I hope today is better.

bunny said...

Oh man, STRESS! I also think this sounds like a normal IF freakout. Congrats on getting through that, and I hope the retrieval goes well.

Rain Child said...

Uggghh, I am so sorry. I wish it had gone better for you. I can't imagine your hormones at the moment. However, just know that we are all sending you big warm hugs.

Jenn said...

Good Luck tomorrow! Why does something always need to happen to stress us out more.....