Welcome ICLW'ers!
I'm Jem. Supposedly Male Factor, but given our IVF with ICSI - 2 great embies transferred fresh and 3 transferred later after being frozen - that resulted in two chemical pregnancies, I can't point my finger at Mr. Jem as the only one with reproductive trouble. It definitely takes two to tango, plus a whole team of medical specialist, apparently!
The FET chemical pregnancy is still very recent (see Monday's post) and I'm still very raw about this, disillusioned with the whole process. Still working through the pain. That's what this blogging thing is all about. Having a safe place to share IF joys and pains with those who understand.
Very glad you stopped by!
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Working from home today. Having lower GI issues. Yuck.
To add insult to injury, I'm staring at a line of medical bills, mostly for Mr. Jem's testicular biopsy. Double yuck. Talk about "Kick you when you are down!"
My brain and heart are still a bit numb. My IVF nurse called today to see how I was doing and to schedule a third beta for next Monday to make sure I'm back down to zero. Gee thanks!
Still waiting to bleed.
Jem
13 comments:
Thanks for the comment on my blog about implanation. So sorry about your chemical. That has got to be just awful. Are they going to look into your recurrent chemicals? Have they checked you for endo or something else that might cause issues with implantation?
as someone who also is paying for a less than favorable result, i feel your pain...and a third beta is just more insult :( im so so sorry you have to go through this. here's hoping your third time is a charm!
my brother and his wife live in union city, just over the bay bridge, so ive been to san fran many many times. love it there! sending you some peace today...lisa
All I can think is "would you like fries with that"?
Ugh, lower GI. Been there, hate that. Hope you are feeling better soon.
And I'm sorry you have to keep going in for betas, it is insult to injury. I hope you are in and out quickly, and it is as painless as possible. ((HUGS))
I am so sorry that this is happening. I hope that you can start your bleed soon so that you can get it over with. I hate the "waiting to bleed" part. It hurts.
Doing the ICLW thing - but more importantly stopping by to let you know that you've been in my thoughts.
Many, many hugs to you!
ICLW
http://daega99-arewethereyet.blogspot.com/
Jem - I was sort of wondering (nosily) if you had been tested for tings such as MTHFR, etc...but didn't want to ask. But I just did. So, there it is. I have had a couple chemical pregnancies, and one miscarriage at about 7 weeks, and I am just having the testing done now (waiting for results as we start this FET.) I can look up what other tests are being done if you are curious. The Leiden thing. LOL.
I also can not stand to even look at the medical/RE bills as they roll in. I just want to throw them in the trash, but what I actually do is give them to DH to look at. Yikes, guess I'm not a good team player regarding financial stuff.
Okay - take care, my dear...
Okay - I am working from my (not so great) memory, but here are some of the tests that I just had run a few weeks ago. I just used wikipedia to get some basic info. I think it's pretty accurate. They may be other tests I am forgetting. It may be a lot of tests, but since we're already paying so much for the IVF, we just went for it, because I don't really want to have another chemical, especially if I can help to prevent it with a couple of B vitamins, or some Lovenox/Heparin, etc. Also, keep in mind I do have Rheumatoid Arthritis, so they are really looking for more immune connections to my infertility. Actually it was my rheumatologist who suggested to my RE that I have more testing done, after the last chemical! Sometimes they need a little nudge! The RE was like "that's a great idea!" ??? Holy toledo lady, why didn't you mention it before? Okay, enough about me. Tangent. I hope your WTF on the 1st goes well, and you get some answers or at least some more testing done...just in case!
MTHFR
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/MTHFR
Factor V Leiden
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Factor_V_Leiden
Factor II / Thrombin
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thrombin
ANA
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anti-nuclear_antibody#ANA_test
Antiphospholipid Antibody
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antiphospholipid_antibody
Anticardiolipin Antibody
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anti-cardiolipin_antibodies
Lupus Anticoagulant Antibody (separate from the ANA)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lupus_anticoagulant
Russell Viper Venom
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dilute_Russell's_viper_venom_time
Have a good weekend - and email me if you have any other questions about my tests, or situation! (btmartino@hotmail.com)
Insurance definitely knows how to screw with you. I remember getting a letter saying that I had no insurance coverage while I was recovering from my first surgery. That's just what you need to help you recover - a freakin' heart attack.
I hope you're able to have a relaxing weekend with your hubby. I'm so sorry you're having to repeat betas and "wait to bleed". This just plain sucks :(.
The waiting to move on but can't because you haven't completely 'let go' with a period is excrutiating. I'm not sure if I mentioned that I've been there. Anyway, I know this is a VERY trying time. Continue to reach out, continue to blog...these are all things I didn't do much of and I know now that it is extremely cathartic.
~mymiracles77 (Stress Free Infertility Blog)
Oh, glad to see it's not just my clinic who are obsessed with endless repeat betas. The limbo is deeply unpleasant, even without upset tummy and medical bills. I hope you are feeling better today.
so sorry for your recent loss. best wishes to you.
christina
iclw
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