Tuesday, January 12, 2010

New symptoms

Lower tummy fine most of the day, but a little crampy at the end of the day, especially after acupuncture last night. BTW, acupuncturist said my pulses were right on track for a positive, whatever that means. I'll take it!

Yesterday and today's main symptom: pain in the rear. I believe my @ss is finally protesting from being iced down and having nasty needs sticking in it each night as progesterone is forced into it. It's my derriere's way of saying, "Enough!" Can't rightly blame it. Had to have a little talk to it, "Please cooperate! Hang in there. It's for a good cause! It will be worth it, I promise!"

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My optimism for this cycle continues. Each time my brain strays near the brink of that chasm of doom that is the possibility of a BFN, a part of me yanks it back with a solid, "It's working this time."

I just hope we don't have a "I told you so!" moment with that negative side of my brain. Even entertaining that idea freaks me out and I jolt back to happy feelings.

And calm.

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Saturday's beta can't come soon enough. Loved Tracey's comment yesterday about her mom's wishes: "She said she wished they could induce a coma on her so that she could just be woken up after the results were in!"

Amen, sistah!

14 comments:

Priscilla said...

Good for you trying to keep the positive thoughts flowing!!! IT'S SO HARD!! Bravo!!! I have my fingers crossed SO TIGHT that this is the BFP you're dreaming about!!!! Come on beta Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

Ps. Awesome what your accupucturist said!!!!

callmemama said...

Hang in there! You're doing great with all of those positive thoughts :). Sending more good thoughts your way!

Circus Princess said...

Can't wait for the results to come in. I'm keeping fingers and toes tightly crossed! COME ON, give us a good start for 2010!

TeeJay said...

Just keep those positive thoughts coming! I'm crossing everything for you!

Melissa G said...

I've always wondered about the correlation between your pulse and a positive. I thought I heard it somewhere else as well...

At any rate, I really hope they're right, and that your numbers come out great on Saturday.

AMC said...

YAY!!!!

T Lee said...

OO, that coma thing is a great idea. They put you on so many drugs as it is... I'm sure they could start adding one more to make it work...

Leslie said...

I really like the coma idea too! I so admire your strength and positive-ness! Hoping that the next few days speed by and you have great news on Saturday!!

Pie said...

Stay positive, keep the calm!! Although a coma is a nice solution too! :)

irrationalexuberance said...

So so hoping that this works, and am loving the part of your brain that pulls you back to the positive thinking!

Mad Hatter said...

Crossing all appendages for you, my dear friend! Keep calm, keep breathing, keep positive!
Love,
Maddy
P.S. Thank you so much for your kind comments lately - means more than you'll ever know!

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Poppet said...

I promise you - your ass will be much much worse when you are 9 months preggers... lets see, that will be September........ :-) Fingers, toes, earlobes, and anything else that can be crossed are crossed.

Also, just to share, my IF buddy RS just e-mailed that she is 3 months along. Has been trying for at least 5 (I don't know all her details)... but success begets success.

Be well.

abumpyride said...

really have fingers crossed for you. sounds like it could be good, keep thinking positive! My period due next weds and all i have is occasional lower back ache but that'll be sitting like a pensioner at my desk.