Wednesday, January 27, 2010

The verdict

Left work early to get to the clinic (1.5 hours from work). It takes me 1 hour, door to door (including the train) to get to and from work. It's another 20-30 minutes to drive to the clinic.

During the u/s with Dr. W, it was clear that there was no sac, no baby in the uterus. Nothing was visible around the ovaries, a good sign that the tubes hadn't ruptured and there was no bleeding.

Conclusion: ectopic pregnancy.

The nurse administered Metho.trexate with two intramuscular injections. Here's what Web.MD has to say about the drug. Dr. W explained that they have been treating tubal pregnancies with this low, low dose of chemotherapy for about 20 years. Beats having a rupture or having to have surgery. My hCG will continue to be monitored - Sunday and again next Wednesday.

The bad thing: Can't even drown my sorrow in alcohol, as alcohol, vitamins, aspirin and other pain killers can all create Metho.trexate toxicity. I jokingly asked if I could take Vicadin, and the nurse didn't say no. She did say to call the clinic and/or the on-call doctor if I had abdominal pain, which is a pretty normal side-effect of the drug (or could mean that the tubes burst anyway).

The silver lining: We're trending in the right direction - 1st fresh IVF resulted in a chemical pregnancy and FET resulted in ectopic. Dr. W agreed when Mr. Jem asked Dr. W. if this meant we were more likely to have a viable, healthy pregnancy next time.

Actually, the real silver lining is having Mr. Jem by my side to make me laugh and to cheer me up.

Jem

20 comments:

Noelle said...

I am so sorry, Jem. I am sorry that you have to go through this after all of the sorrow that you have already suffered through. I am also sorry that you can't drink. Can you take tranquilizers? Oh, that is probably terrible of me to ask and you probably don't take them anyway.

I also think that you are going in the right direction. You got pregnant with both IVF's, and from what I hear, that is very good.

Rest and take care of yourself. Cuddle up with a good movie or a book and your hubby. Take some time off of work if you feel the need.

Again, I am so sorry and I will hold you in my thoughts. You don't deserve this.

Mrs Bee said...

I am so sorry.

Sending you all my love.

addingtothepack said...

I am so sorry. I am glad you have Mr. Jem.

Leslie said...

I am so sorry! I admire you for being able to look at the positive side and that is great that your dr agreed! I hope that any pain from the shots are minimal and that the rest of your week & weekend is restful & relaxing.

Michelle said...

I'm sorry. That just stinks. Hoping for peace for you.

lis said...

i bet you are just exhausted from your day. im glad they gave you hopful news for the future. thats exciting. i hope your side effects aren't bad and that this is all resolved quickly.
xoxo
lisa

Jendeis said...

I'm sorry sweetie. Praying that there's no rupture and this happens quickly and that you recover quickly.

mekate said...

God how sucky. I am so sorry you have to deal with this, and yes, it bodes well for the future! but in this moment it sucks rocks.
I hope that this happens as gently as it can for you, and I am so glad you have Mr. Jem, and
I hope your HCG drops like a rock after this, so you can get on to your next cycle knowing you make viable embryos and this is a very good thing to know.

So very sorry for your damn ectopic kick in the pants.
sending healing wishes your way,
Kate

sprogblogger said...

I'm so very sorry. Glad you have Mr. Jem at your side, & I'm wishing a speedy recovery for you.

Rain Child said...

I am so sorry. I wish it had been better news. My thoughts are with you and I hope the next few weeks go smoothly.

Fertility Chick said...

I'm so sorry. Glad that you have Mr. Jem for support - know that I'm thinking about you here.

SecretSisterhood said...

Way to look at the silver lining in a very big gloomy cloud. Keep your chin up.

Dana said...

I am so sorry it was ectopic! And then to take away the joys of alcohol too? Geez! Keep your chin up girl! At least till you can have a nice stiff drink! :)
ICLW

Serendipity said...

I'm so sorry, I know you were expecting it but it's still a kick in the teeth to have the reality happen. Take care of yourself and Mr Jem.

Heather said...

Jem, I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. I'm so glad they monitored your HCG levels though and caught this early. Take care of yourself. I'm thinking of you.

TeeJay said...

I'm sorry, Jem. It really sucks to be going through this. I'm hoping that no tubes burst and that you can get over this hurdle pronto. Again, so sorry about it all.

callmemama said...

I'm so sorry Jem - this just blows. I hope the meds do the trick and you can avoid surgery or any damage to your tubes. Thank God for sweet husbands!

Pie said...

Jem, I"m so sorry you have to go thru this. I hope the meds work quickly and painlessly and you can be done with this ectopic.

mommyinwaiting said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this hell. Thinking of you. Take care of yourself - give yourself lots of TLC.

Illanare said...

I'm so sorry you are going through this horrible time. Thinking of you.