Monday, November 16, 2009

Period.

I'm in Dallas for work, busy, busy with details for a "very important meeting" - only it all doesn't feel that important compared to what Mr. Jem and I have been through the last couple of weeks.

Auntie Flo decided to visit yesterday, a gushing end to our first IVF cycle. Closure. End to my "denial" stage of mourning.

Emotionally I'm doing much better. Only feel like crying once or twice a day. I'm actually feeling a little hopeful for our FET.

Thanks again to all my IF sisters and brothers out there in the bog-o-sphere. Your support and kind words meant the world to me. It is all still painful, but so, so good to know that we are not alone in this process.

Jem

13 comments:

Nicole said...

I'm still so sorry about your cycle. But I'm so glad that you are feeling a bit better, even if it's not good yet; and that you are encouraged about your FET. Have you already decided when it will be?

Mad Hatter said...

I am so sorry, Jem. ((Hugs))
Love,
Maddy

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry that this one didn't stick. I hope you have better results the next time.

TeeJay said...

I'm so sorry about your negative. It sucks beyond belief. I know all of the feelings you are having and it all just sucks. There's no other word for it. I am glad that you have some frosties on ice waiting for you. I've read so many stories of sucess when it comes to FETs. I'm really hoping for you. Take some time and drink some wine, you deserve it.

Pie said...

You most certainly are NOT alone, never forget that. ((((((BIG HUGS))))))) for you, and I hope time makes this BFN easier.

IF Optimist, then... said...

Unfortunately I know how it feels, my first IVF ended in a chemical and it really, really, really sucks. There are so many unanswered questions, so many thoughts of what will happen next. Sending you lots and lots of warm hugs and hopes of a better future.

Anonymous said...

Suckiness abounds. I am so sorry again. And to restate what Pie said...you are most definitely NOT alone. I hope while you are in Texas, you can enjoy some good BBQ or a little self indulgence.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you're starting to feel a little better. We're here for you, anytime.

C said...

I'm so sorry. ((HUGS))

'Murgdan' said...

I'm sorry you're going through it at all...the post IVF flow is horrid. Have I mentioned what a big fan of FETs I am??

You are not alone.

Jendeis said...

I'm sorry Jem. This blows. Hope that you get to have some good food and wine in the Big D.

Kim said...

hopefully work is keeping you busy, but i'm sure it hurts to have that big red reminder right now.

glad you are feeling hopeful for you FET...you should! it sounds like you have beautiful frosties just waiting for you!

Anonymous said...

Damn the fertility gods! So sorry to hear, sending ((hugs))