This morning I had my second beta at the clinic. I had a 7:00 a.m. appointment to draw blood. I guess they want to make sure that nothing hormonal is still happening.
At 6:45 a.m. it was clear that I wasn't going to make it and had to reschedule to be down there (20 minutes from home) at 7:35. I had flown back home from Texas the night before and was dead tired. But it was more than that.
We ended up getting there at 7:55 a.m. It was like my feet were made of lead.
I cried the whole drive down to the clinic. Mr. Jem asked, "What's wrong? I thought you were doing so much better."
"I was!" I answered. "But driving down here has re-opened the wound!"
I had a very busy time in Texas, long days working on a meeting. I didn't have time to feel anything. Now, back in the car, all the feeling rushed back. Good thing I didn't wear mascara today!
I guess this mourning period takes longer than I thought. We've been TTC since Jan 2007, so I guess I should cut myself a little slack and not expect to just "be better" on command.
How long has it taken for you to recover from a BFN (if ever)?
Update: Results of HCG #2: back to normal