Thursday, November 12, 2009

8

Dr. Wonderful just called. My HCG is 8. That's way too low.

Game over.

Insert more tokens to continue playing.

I can't be at work, as I'm a bag full of tears. Couldn't bear people's questions. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?"

Here's where the ear-muffs go on for those sensitive to swearing.

Shit, fuck, motherfucker. This sucks beyond anything I've ever experienced.

Jem

19 comments:

Katie said...

I am so, so sorry. You're right--it fucking sucks.

And thank you for your comment on my blog. It's nice to know I'm not the only one out there cursing the fertility gods for shitty betas.

(((hugs)))

Mad Hatter said...

Oh, no....I'm so sorry, Jem. I was so hopeful for you. It's not fair.

Poppet said...

My poor Jem. I am so sorry for your loss. It is a loss and you have every right to mourn.

Good thoughts coming from NJ...

(PS The fat lady - and I would never call a lady fat - AIN'T singing!!!!)

A said...

I am so sorry- It's okay to cry (hug)

Kim said...

i am so sorry jem. i was just so sure i was going to see a positive post from you.

shit fuck motherfucker is right! it really just isnt fair.

my thoughts are with you and mr jem.

Rain Child said...

I am sorry Jem. It does fucking suck!!!! My thoughts are with you and Mr. Jem!!!

Allison said...

I'm so sorry, Jem.

IF Optimist, then... said...

So very sorry to hear your awful news. I've been there and it is really fucking hard. Drink some wine, go out for sushi, cry like hell. Sending you hugs and lots support.

babyattheend said...

I'm so sorry, Jem... when will you be having another beta to see if they're rising... I hope it's not over..... I'm so so so sorry...

Illanare said...

I'm so sorry, this is so effing unfair. Thinking of you both.

Brandy said...

I am so so sorry! It does suck. Cuss all you want. Scream into your pillow. It doesn't make anything better, but sometimes you feel a tad better after. Take care of yourself!!

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jenicini said...

Aw, shit. I am thinking of you girl.

'Murgdan' said...

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. It sucks. I'm so sorry.

Pie said...

Fuckidity fuck fuck. I'm so sorry, I was really hopeful right along with you. Ugh, it sucks.

Jendeis said...

Jem, I'm so sorry.

C said...

Oh Sweetie, I'm so sorry :( I'm crying for you.

Swear, scream, yell, throw things, whatever you have to do, do it.

((HUGE HUGS))

romancing_the_stone said...

I am thinking of you.....I am s ending you warmth, love and healing powers. I am sorry. Shell http://romancingthestone.wordpress.com

Jaymee said...

so sorry that you are going through this. we got the same number on our second beta. it is an awful feeling that is very hard to express to others. sending you healing thoughts.

ifcrossroads said...

Damn it! I'm so sorry!!!! Why is this so fucking hard?