Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Happy ICLW

Welcome ICLW'ers,

I'm Jem. I'm 2 weeks away from my 40th birthday. Yes, that freaks me out. I've always planned on being pregnant before 40... hmmm. I did get pregnant (see below)... I guess I should have been specific in my goal-setting -- "I want to be carrying a viable baby by 40." In any case, that dream is dead.

You can see my full IF journey to the right, but, in a nutshell, been TTC for a few years, but only with medical intervention since mid-2009. As we're Male Factor, we jumped directly to IVF, with a fresh cycle in November and frozen cycle in January. Both resulted in a BFP, but one chemical pregnancy, and the other ectopic with a good 6 weeks of drama to "resolve" it. No fun.

Right now we're on a break as my work is super demanding until our sales conference mid-May. I'm finally starting to imagine starting another cycle... in June. I haven't had as much to post about while on a break (sorry, dear readers).

In the meantime, today is CD1, for whatever that's worth. Mr. Jem had a SA yesterday, after being on Clo.mid for 2.5 months. Clom.id has lowered his libido to zero, so we're both anxious to hear how the SA went. Mr. Jem meets with Dr. Johnson, his urologist tomorrow. I'll be sure to update you all.

One last word: I just wanted to say how much I appreciate all the love and support out here in the bloggy world. I love your comments and love your blogs. Thank you!

Jem

16 comments:

Wishing 4 One said...

wishing you a successful cycle this june. stick with it, its tough i know, but it can happen. hang in there. happy iclw.

-K said...

Hang in there. I know you hear it a lot but I mean it. And isn't 40 the new sexy? Great blog, can't wait to read more. I'm your newest follower from IComLeavWe.

-K
http://mypottyseat.blogspot.com/

Michelle said...

I'm hoping your SA results are positive. I'm shocked to hear about the libido decrease.. For my dh it went the opposite way. June is coming very soon!! Much luck.

sienna said...

hi from iclw!! i'm also in the waiting period before ivf #2 bc work is busy until june, which is when my clinic closes for a few weeks. so july ivf it is. i'm wishing you a belated bday present of big fat BFP for your next ivf round. will be cheering you on :o) *lots* of luck!

lowfatlady said...

I hope that your hubby's sa comes out good. My birthday is in may too ;)

daega99 said...

I hope the SA results are good. My husband was on clomid for a while and it definitely was different...

ICLW
http://daega99-arewethereyet.blogspot.com/

HopeBPatient said...

I'm right there with you on turning 40 (just a few weeks later) and also having thought I'd be pregnant, certainly, by that milestone. So much for planning things out! Wishing you luck on your June cycle!

Leslie said...

Sending ++ thoughts for your DH's SA results and your cycle this coming June!

mommyinwaiting said...

Hi Jem,

Do you ever feel like you are at an AA meeting and it starts with "Hi My Name is Mommy In Waiting and I'm an infertile?" Maybe it's just me.

I am holding thumbs and crossing fingers and hoping Hoping HOPING that Mr Jem's SA gives you the best of results.

Priscilla said...

Glad to hear that you're almost ready to get back on the horse!! I'm always rooting for you!!!!

Miriam said...

Came here via ICLW, and I have to chuckle that your husband's urologist is named Dr. Johnson. Amazing ^_^ Good luck with this next cycle!
Happy ICLW!
~Miriam (ICLW #32)
http://hannahweptsarahlaughed.blogspot.com
Twitter: MiriamsHope

Glass Case of Emotion said...

Happy ICLW week!

Sorry to hear the dream didn't work out as planned. I am glad hope is able to resurface, and I hope your new birthday year brings you the luck you need. Loss is so much to bear, and you've had enough.

(Also, as a side funny note- your schedule on the side says, you had a year of total denial in 2008- I had one of those that year too!)

Crossed Fingers said...

Oh I'm so sorry to hear about both of your losses, I just had a C/P myself. It's horrible. I hope you get good news with the SA and the IVF in June is a go!

ICLW #119

http://lovelyladybump.blogspot.com/

BabyWid said...

Happy ICLW!

I hope your next cycle is the one where you get a nice and sticky BFP! I hope your hubby's SA comes back good and everything will be good to go for June. Good luck with everything!

Katie said...

I'm your newest follower from ICLW. Great blog...can't wait to read more. We're suffering with male factor infertility too. We've had one IVF that was unsuccessful. It was devastating, but I'm learning to move on.

subfertilefrugalista said...

Wishing you all the best with the urologist. Here's hoping that your 40th year will bring amazing things! 40 is the new 20, or so they say!

happy iclw