The blood has been drawn (at 8:10 a.m. Pacific).
The prayers have been said.
Every time I panic and fantasize about Dr. W. calling and saying, "Good news, Jem!" or "Not good news, Jem." I stop myself and take a deep breath and say to myself. "No hurry, no wait. Be in THIS moment. You can deal with that moment when it comes."
Not to say I'm not going out of my f'ing mind at this point.
All the same, I have NOT peed on a stick. I have kept my mind positive and open to whatever will come. I was about to type "
Of course I'll be devastated" but erased that from my mind. I just can't go there.
Instead I will continue Operation Distraction by reading your blogs, commenting, working and laughing as much as possible.
This is the zen garden that is my mind...