I took your advice, oh wise readers, and canceled our WTF appointment for Thursday.
You are so right! A break aught to really be a break. I don't want to think about what to do next when I can't act on it until after mid-May. I want to climb back in my little cocoon of denial and just focus on other things. Namely, pain.
Not mental anguish, but the physical type. My left hip hurts. My left buttock, to be precise. Stabbing pain, with additional pain in my left knee. Seeing my chiropractor this afternoon.