29 days ago marked the start of the Great 8-day Sludge period (see this post), with another period starting 3 days after that one ended.
Yesterday I started spotting again. Today, more spotting, some brown. Can't tell if I had a 29-day cycle or a 21-day cycle. If it was 29, what was that three-day light period?
Arrghh. This whole thing confuses me.
To my IRL friends: this next section may be TMI for you. I won't be offended if you don't read. Cover your eyes and ears and repeat after me: "La, la, la, I can't hear you!"
To you IF veterans out there: I can hear you already, "No biggie! Bring it on, Jem! Whatya got for us? Huh? We can handle it!"
Mr. Jem is finishing up his second month on Clo.mid after being on Test.im for one month. Test.im made him feel great, but it was expensive. He and his urologist decided to switch him over to the generic for Clo.mid to see if it would up his sperm count. Dr. Johnson wanted to give it three months to see if it works. Only problem? Mr. Jem's already low libido has dropped to zero. No manner of fanny wagging (imagine Cameron_Diaz in Charlie's_Angels) inspired him. When boldly asked to accompany me to the bedroom, after subtle measures didn't work, his response was, "I'm too tired. I just want to watch TV."
I'm heartbroken. I know Mr. Jem just wants to produce sperm so we can make a baby. But how can we make a baby if he has no desire to baby dance? Plus, lack of desire has been an issue between us since before we got married 6 years ago. Mine is higher than his. His at zero freaks me out and I want to leave him.
I can hear you thinking, "That Jem has no patience. What's wrong with her? He was patient with you when you were all bloated from IVF." You are right. But isn't the urologist supposed to help his/our love life? Mr. Jem is going to call Dr. Johnson today to see what can be done. I'll keep you posted.
Have any of you faced a similar problem? If so, I'd love to hear about it.
In the meantime, I'm here cursing IF yet again. F@!*& You, infertility!