Wednesday, September 14, 2011

7w3d: limbo (again)

Seeing that heartbeat last week lifted a huge weight off me, lifted me out of a
fog I've been in for years now. A fog of longing and frustration. I
just don't want this to end. I'm constantly moving myself back to a
state of "I don't know" because otherwise my imagination takes me to
extremes: day-dreaming about who will be with me for the birth to
certainty that the heartbeat has stopped. Not good.

Otherwise only symptoms are very sore boobs. Very little nausea and
only occasionally. Tiny cramping. No more spotting since week 4/5 (I'm
now in week 7!). My next u/s is next Thur.

Doing well, busy week at work. Great distraction.

~Jem

11 comments:

Mrs. Gamgee said...

The worries are normal after all you have gone through to get to this point. And the syptoms do come and go for some women. Hang in there...

Jessica Anne said...

I know exactly how you feel! I am pregnant with twins and I did not have any symptoms.... I mean none at all. I was not nauseated, did not have sore boobs, nada. But, everyone is different and every pregnancy is different so try not to read into the symptoms too much! I'm sure all is well with your bean.

Also, I would suggest a doppler for 12 plus weeks. They go for about 60 bucks on e-bay and are a great way to reassure yourself the the little one is okay! =)

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TeeJay said...

Hang in there...it's good to stay in a calm state of mind but also know that you should be very excited at the same time. I wish I had spent more time being happy with what I had...I'd give anything to be that happy again.

Mrs. Lemon said...

I worried all the way to this point. You are normal, all will be okay! Hugs!

callmemama said...

Glad that your work is providing you with some distractions at least! Hang in there :).

Sooz said...

Sounds like things are going pretty well! I know it's hard to be patient (I'm going through that, too). Hang in there!

infertile-thoughts said...

Chin up and keep plugging away. We are all thinking of you!

Kakunaa said...

Good signs! I don't think you should worry about the nausea. Consider yourself lucky!

Allison said...

I know those swings well. It's very hard... but you are doing great. Thinking about you, Jem.

northern lights said...

I also know the places your mind is going - from good fantasy to worrying yourself sick. Distract yourself... but most of take it easy and pamper yourself. I was seriously too afraid to cough or cry for fear something would dislodge- infertility is traumatic, and I still can't believe I'm a mom and will never ever take one minute of this for granted.

Prayers, hugs ---

Adele said...

Distraction = good. Limbo = painful. These are the hardest weeks, bar none. Keeping fingers crossed for the day you progress to a "safer" zone (although those dark thoughts are occasionally inevitable, even there).