Last night Mr. Jem and I went to our weekly marriage counseling session. We’ve been getting very valuable help ironing out how to communicate better, how to understand each other AND get our needs met. We’ve come a long way since we started seeing this woman. We still have a long way to go.
One thing we discussed was the current cycle. Mr. Jem told J, our therapist, “Jem doesn’t think this cycle worked.” Her response: “Hmm. Instead of lowering your expectations or being giddily convinced it worked, how about just saying, ‘I don’t know?’ What would that feel like?”
Bloody brilliant woman!
So, here I set 11 days past ovulation and IUI with donor sperm, not knowing if the cycle worked, if I’m pregnant or not. And I’m okay with this uncertainty. I’m just “being” with it. It just is.
~Zen Jem
