After crying for an hour straight after receiving the news of our BFN, I started implementing my plan for the FU IF diet.
- I began with a hot dog for lunch yesterday.
- I had a glass of red wine at 4:00 p.m. (on an empty stomach). It tasted AMAZING.
- Followed by another glass with dinner - pepperoni pizza (acupuncturist had me on no pork and low carb, thus no pasta and pizza).
- I had chocolate for dessert, first time in months.
- Then a little fun in the bedroom - Thank you, Big O. It does help as a mood lifter.
- This morning: bagel (see above), medium-sized latte (Low fat and full caff of course), cream cheese (I had cut way back on dairy), egg quiche (and I had also cut out eggs). Then a cream cheese danish.
- Lunch: I will have some sort of sliced meats, preferably processed with nitrates.
- Dinner: Sushi (raw fish), and sake. Then candy and popcorn at the movie theatre. Planning on going at the time I would (should) have had my PIO shot.
Take that, IF!
This is how I cope. I hope I don't feel too sick with all this crap.
Eventually (in the next day or so), I will go back to a "eat healthy food" diet so I can lose the extra 20 lbs (Thanks to two IVFs and a FET). In the meantime, I will do what I want to.
I'm back in the office and I don't feel like crying. That's good, right?
Thank you to all of you for the outpouring of sympathy. You all get it. I appreciate it.
WTF appointment scheduled for July 22. Should have been our first OB scan. FML. (oh, no, the tears are starting...)
~Jem
Update: Urpppp. Now I feel jittery and a little sick...
